Am I doing this?

 As you know, the WIP is really making progress - slow, but happening. Now I have some pages in my hand, I am wondering ...

As part of the Romantic Novelists' Association conference which takes place at the end of July attendees have the opportunity of a short consultation with an agent or editor - possibly more than one, to discuss a manuscript. Big question - should I have a go? The MS is a long way from anything like finished. A looong way. And I have no idea what I intend to do with it when that happens, except a nebulous idea about self publishing. But - now I am tempted. The 1-2-1 sessions at conference are acknowledged to be only the very first step on a book being taken on, so there would be no six figure contracts in the offing. (Don't we all wish!) but it would be interesting to find out from a professional whether they found it interesting, particularly as I am crossing genres - romantic suspense and dark academia. (And which is a big reason why I have assumed I would have to self publish). 

Thing is, the selection process requires all the usual submission stuff, synopsis, elevator pitch, bio, the opening of the actual book ... I haven't done any of that for a long time. 

Do I want to? 

Would I be better off spending my time just quietly plowing on with the actual WIP? Currently dithering and  scribbling 30 word pitches on bits of scrap paper.

I'm really not sure. But if I don't, will I get to the conference, hear the valuable  feedback other people are getting and wish I had?  

I used to do those author/editor/agent meetings at every opportunity before I had a book accepted. And it was as a result of one of those 1-2-1s at the RNA conference in Greenwich, many moons ago, that I got my contract with Choc-lit. 

No expectations now, and it will be a while before there is actually a viable book.

But I am curious ...

No expectations now

Excitement

 It's been an exciting week in the romance world - the week when the finalists in the Romantic Novelists' Association annual awards are announced. Judged by readers and spread over twelve categories the awards represent some of the best UK romantic fiction over the past year. Names you will know, some you won't, all competing for the accolade of being a winner. Even being a finalist is a great honour and a real buzz. I know, I've been a winner once and a finalist twice. As I have not had a book out for a while, I don't have a horse in the race - although I have hopes that maybe it might happen again. There are lots of friends in the various line ups this year, so awards night, which takes place next month, will be an event. If you want to know a bit more, and maybe get some high class suggestions for the TBR pile details are HERE

And reliving past glories - this is when I won the Joan Hessayan trophy for the best RNA debut in 2012 with the book that was then called Never Coming Home. 

The RNA Chairperson, the late Annie Ashcroft/Sara Craven is handing over the trophy. I don't remember if that was before or after I burst into tears! I will always be proud that my name is on the lovely little piece of silverware. 

Testing the water.

Being an author is like sitting in an ivory tower. You scribble away, never quite sure whether what you are producing is viable, or even if it makes sense. Which is why when someone at the writers' group that I attend in Hereford suggested we have a workshop to critique each others WIP, I jumped at the chance. I've done it before, but not for a while. It is a supportive atmosphere, the object is constructive criticism, with a bit of encouragement thrown in, so a good place to launch your duckling on an unsuspecting world to find out if you have a potential swan - or just a duckling with delusions of grandeur. 

There were 8 of us, everyone puts in 10 pages, anonymously, we hire a room and take the day to work through them, with lunch in the middle. Apart from the day itself, the first scary thing was seeing the other submissions. All very different, all scary good. It was at this point I began to get Imposter Syndrome in a big way!

As it was an early start and I wanted to be on the ball as my 10 pages were first on the list. I had a very nice night in the Green Dragon Hotel in the town centre. It made a real difference, as my journey time is two hours on the train, with a very early walk to the station. Fine for a social event and catch up with friends - not so good if you will be spending the day working. with an earlier start than usual to get everything in. 

And it was worth it. 

As I have said before, I am returning to the style I had when I first got published, a rather more gritty romantic suspense. I was particularly wondering about my first line and whether I had managed to get the hero right - I wanted mystery and an edge of danger. Turns out things were OK. I got some really good feedback about the whole thing, the things people wanted to see about my heroine and pointers on the setting. We had an entertaining discussion on whether seagulls fly in the dark. (They do, I have them nesting on my neighbours' roofs, but I probably need to have another look at that.) It has given me confidence to keep going, and we are doing it all again in October, so I can have another go with another bit. It was really good to look at everyone else's work too, read some really great stories and help other authors in the way they had helped me. And a lot of fun finding out if your guesses of who had written what were right. 

All in all a tiring and intensive but worthwhile day.

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